Winning the Lottery

After fretting over our financial situation month after month trying and trying to do something to magically make more money show up in our bank account, we decided to joins the billions of people state wide who play the Texas lottery. We knew that the odds of us actually getting even just one or two number to match were very very slim that we would even get a few let alone the entire jackpot. But, having a dollar in spare change jingling around the car when we went to get gas we said...why not! What harm could it do? So, the evening of the drawing we sat around anxiously awaiting the screen to show the, OUR winning numbers. Meanwhile, the news is on and story after story of death and destruction floods the screens. I'm not naive to the fact that Satan has a tight grip on our world and that there really are those bad people out there that my mom and dad always talked about. I just don't care to be constantly reminded of the incrediably feirce world that awaits my innocent little girl. But, for the sake of a few million dollars I watched. I watched in great anticipation that surely the one time we play God would bless us with the financial stability we have prayed about and the abitlity to give to those I know and love. Alas. I still sit here in our dust ridden 900 square foot apartment waiting for the dollars to start rolling in. Yet I feel more full and without any real wants for the first time in my life. My relationship with the Lord has grown exponentially in the past few months and grows stronger with each passing day. His lessons grow larger and larger yet excites my every minute of every day just to see what He has in store next. I feel as though I have gotten the absolute best friend anyone could ever ask for in Him. He has blessed me with a husband who adores me, does everything in his power to support me and our little girl. He has given me the most precious gift anyone could ever recieve; a daughter who is the light of my life. She brightens my day from the minute she gets up til the minute she gently falls asleep rested on my shoulder. And you know, all He wants in return is our love and devotion to Him. Praise God that we are so blessed. Thank you Jesus for who You are.

I guess I have won the lottery after all.