a little insight and ramblings

There are always a gazillion thing going on in my head but I never seem to have the time to think about all of them at once....therfore I stay up way past a reasonable bed time and stay sleepy for the next few days. Then I thought that maybe if I write them down then I can clear some clutter goin on up there. This will in turn allow me to proceed with my day. so here they are

1. Where will our next move be? Chris has a love for flying. He left pilot training in the Air Force to be there for his family. A choice not many men would have made. But he still misses it. So, he is exploring the possibility of flying helicopters in the Texas National Guard. If he gets a slot we will then move to Alabama for a year. This move would be so incrediably helpful for us in so many ways. Now that Chris is a Captain, he would get Captain's pay for the year he would be in heli training. Wow would this help! It is twice what we make now. We could pay off some debt and save for our next child. Which brings me to number two.....

2. With Katelyn getting older (and more spoiled) by the day, when is a good time for number two? Are we supposed to "plan" for our next child or am I being silly and not trusting in His infinite wisdom for our lives? ......I may have just answered my own question.

3. How can I get over my fear of leaving Katelyn with a babysitter so Chris and I can go out and be a couple? Like a real date....one that doesn't involve kids and/or other people. We haven't had a date in oh.....about 5 months and even then it was a disaster. We sat in a loud crowded restaurant for 2.5 hours while not being able to talk to each other and then went home. I think we need some queit non-kid time away from the apartment to refresh our memories as to what it's like to be real people! Pray.

That's basically what's on my mind here lately. Nothing big....ha!



Ahhh to be a little girl playing in a laundry basket with absolutely no worries whatsoever. Would that be nice yet again?

I have newfound respect and understanding for my parents these days. I am raising one child and dealing with all the pressures that comes from that. Financial, emotional, developmental, etc. My parents did all that with 6 kids and are(relatively I must say) still sane. Bless those crazy folks! It is amazing to me that all 6 of us have made it through childhood with no real issues at hand. We were loved, clothed, taken care of and fed on a daily basis. I can't really remember any time that we weren't comletely taken care of physically, emotionally and spiritually. Sure there were times when we didn't get what we wanted at the time (ie. the most popular toy or the cooles clothes) but I would have traded those materialistic things in a heart beat for the warmth that our home brought. My parents weren't perfect by any stretch of the imagination. They made mistakes and sometimes didn't always perform to their uptmost as parents, but I am who I am today because of the job they. They did that through all of the trials and tribulations that marriage, family, jobs etc bring. They are going on 34 years of marriage. Praise God. For all that did and continue to do to this day, I will be eternally grateful and thankful.